dear diary: whhhyyyyyy

     Real talk, here are some things that stress me out.

     1. I shaved part of my head when I was living on my own and in university and incredibly lonely and bored and I recently tried to grow it out and I even more recently just saved it again and I've accepted that I'm probably going to die with a shaved part of my head. This is half bad ass and half weird and I just feel a little confused in the hair department.

     2. I cannot even begin to say how crazy I get when people get weird about feminism. There are three words I have to say about it: DON'T BE DUMB. This may seem insensitive but I'm going to explain myself, don't worry. I have two main groups of people that I'm directing this towards and they are as follows: the "feminism is man hating and stupid even though I don't know anything but I'm too ignorant to ask what it actually means so I'm just gonna keep insulting it" and the "FEMINISM IS EVERYTHING LISTEN TO ME TALK ABOUT IT I'M RIGHT YOU'RE WRONG I'M ANGRY AGH". Both of you, chill. Don't be dumb. First person, the ignorant one, please ask questions. Don't just comment on shit you know nothing about saying embarrassing things like "Oh my god, I can't believe Emma Watson would lie in her UN speech about what feminism means."...!!!!!! Are you serious? Instead of arguing from a place of zero certainty, maybe just approach the situation a little more peacefully and humbly thanks?? No one is going to bite your head off for asking questions, but they will eat you alive if you're an oblivious asshole. To the second person on my hit list, bitch, everyone is angry about feminism. It's frustrating that dealing with people like example A on my list is inevitable but it is, but please, stay calm. No one is going to listen to you if you're screaming, just like you're not going to listen to people who tell you you're wrong if they're screaming. Be an approachable feminist, not a mean one. Again, I get the anger, but you want people to join the movement, right? Not run away from it, and they will if you're rude. So please, stop yelling and slow down.

     3. Not going to the gym is okay. You don't have to feel bad about not going to the gym. Correction: I do not have to feel bad about not going to the gym. I keep having to remind myself of this because the world is so damn set on making me feel bad about myself. I am AWESOME and my body is perfectly healthy and I'm fine. I'm a server and I'm running all over a restaurant all day which is definitely enough exercise. And if you dance when you're by yourself as much as I do, you're probably getting enough exercise too. Health can be a really big issue, but if you are of average weight or even a little bit over, there is nothing wrong with you. Fat is not bad, it's necessary to have some on your body, and you are fine. I am fine.

     4. It should not be as hard as it is to get student loans. That's all I have to say about that.

     I feel like this post is sort of negative, but I mean everything I said. Shit is shitty sometimes and I just wanted to acknowledge that. Thank you for reading about my problems, thank you for supporting me, thank you for not stressing me out. <3