Today, I just want to talk about how much I love being in a choir.
I never really understood sports, ever. I liked gym class because there was no competition, I love to pedal bike, I love yoga, I like to walk around to places sometimes; you know, easy, fun stuff. I never understood why everyone loved full-contact, violent, bloody, primal sports. I couldn't share the passion. And I always felt extremely left out because of that, but I just couldn't force myself to do it. To me, sports are always super fun when you're just playing outside with your cousins because the weather is great, but competitive team sports actually make me want to vomit. I played soccer for three years and for the whole three years, I swear, I was actually either a) on the bench or b) hiding. It was a disgrace, really. Don't get me wrong, I think it is so bad ass when people like sports and play them, I'm just sharing my opinion/personal experiences.
Anyways, I figure that the reason people like to be punched in the face by basketballs so much is because they get to do it with people beside them who support them, love them, and have things in common with them. Teams, groups, clubs, alliances, guilds, etc. all have support and love. Basically, they're like a family but with people who actually understand you, and what could ever be better than that? This, my internet friends, is why I love choir.
I've always loved singing. Ever since I could talk, I could sing. But I always did it alone and I didn't know any different. I joined choir in junior high, but it was a group of tone-deaf girls and one boy who all tried to sing in unison and ended up singing cluster chords. Anyways, the first time I heard a choral piece was in grade 10. This was also the first time I'd seen a piece of music with four parts. I was terrified. But the second I could feel I was singing the right note, and the second I could feel the basses, the tenors and the altos singing their right notes at the same moment as me, I knew that choir was where I belonged; I knew that choir would always be where I belonged. I understood, in that moment, why people liked team sports. I knew that everyone else in that room felt the same thing I felt. I knew that we all understood how incredible it was that these sounds were being made with our bodies; that this music was being made by muscles. It's magic. There's no other word to describe it.
My choir is my second home. The people there understand what I do. When I try to explain to my parents that it's possible for a person to sing two notes at once or that when a chord is sung perfectly in tune, notes simply appear because of said perfection, I get a "That's nice, dear." And I'm not saying I don't love my parents, or that they don't appreciate what I do, they just don't understand it on the level that my choir family does. There is no other place in the world where you hear the words, "A tritone? YES!", or "Dude, your falsetto is fucking sweet." Every single person understands why the person beside them is standing there. We're all connected on such a different level than other people. I have a support group, I have fellow musicians who I can discuss my ideas with, and I have friends for life.
Okay, I'm done gushing. I hope you all have a special group of people whom you can share your lives with. Have a nice night.
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